Transcendence

  The Discipline of Transcendence The Discipline of Transcendence
Discourses on the 42 Sutras of Buddha by Osho

Talks given from 21/08/76 to 30/08/76 
Buddha Hall, Pune, India

 
Vol 1 Chapter #1
Chapter title: The most excellent way
21 August 1976 am in Buddha Hall


This sutra, 'The Sutra of Forty-Two Chapters', has never existed in India. It never existed in Sanskrit or in Pali. This sutra exists only in Chinese. A certain Emperor Ming of the Han dynasty, AD 67, invited a few Buddhist masters to China to bring the message of Buddha there. Nobody knows the names of those Buddhist masters, but a group went to China. And the Emperor wanted a small anthology of Buddhist sayings as a first introduction to the Chinese people.

Buddhist scriptures are very big, the Buddhist literature is in itself a world. It was very difficult. What to translate in a totally new country where nothing like Buddha has ever existed? So these Buddhist masters composed a small anthology of forty-two chapters. They collected sayings from here and there, from this scripture and that, from this sermon and that.

In the beginning of this century scholars used to think that the original must have existed in Sanskrit or Pali, then it disappeared, was lost, and this sutra in the Chinese is a translation. That is absolutely wrong. This sutra never existed in India. As it is, it never existed. Of course, each saying comes from Buddha, but the whole work is a new work, a new anthology. So you have to remember that. And that's why I have chosen it as a first introduction for you to the Buddha's world. It is very simple. It contains all in a very simple way. It is very direct. It is in essence the whole message, but very short, not very long and lengthy as other Buddhist scriptures are.

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Vol 3 Chapter #9 
Chapter title: Away with the Passions! 
29 October 1976 am in Buddha Hall

Page 130 "Why has man remained in so much misery? And the miracle is that everybody wants to be happy. You cannot find a man who wants to be miserable, and yet everybody is in misery. Everybody wants to be happy, blissful, peaceful, silent, everybody wants to be in joy, everybody wants to celebrate -- but it seems impossible. Now, there must be some very deep cause, so deep that Freudian analysis could not reach it, so deep that logic cannot penetrate it.

Before we enter into the sutras, that basic thing has to be understood: Man wants happiness, that's why he is miserable. The more you want to be happy, the more miserable you will be. Now this is very absurd, but this is the root cause. And when you understand the process of how the human mind functions you will be able to realise it. Man wants to be happy, hence he creates misery. If you want to get out of misery, you will have to get out of your desire for happiness -- then nobody can make you miserable. Here is where Freud missed. He could not understand that the very desire for happiness can be the cause of misery. How does it happen? Why in the first place do you desire happiness? And what does it do to you, the desire for happiness?

The moment you desire for happiness, you have moved away from the present, you have moved away from the existential, you have already moved into the future -- which is nowhere, which has not come yet. You have moved in a dream. Now, dreams can never be fulfilling. Your desire for happiness is a dream. The dream is unreal. Through the unreal, nobody has ever been able to reach to the real. You have taken a wrong train. The desire for happiness simply shows that you are not happy right at this moment. The desire for happiness simply shows that you are a miserable being. And a miserable being projects in the future that some time, some day, some way, he will be happy. Out of misery comes your projection. It carries the very seeds of misery. It comes out of you -- it cannot be different from you. It is your child: its face will be like you; in its body your blood will be circulating. It will be your continuity.

You are unhappy today; you project tomorrow to be happy, but tomorrow is a projection of you, of your today, of whatsoever you are. You are unhappy -- the tomorrow will come out of this unhappiness and you will be more unhappy. Of course, out of more unhappiness you will desire for more happiness in the future again. And then you are in a vicious circle: the more unhappy you become, the more you desire for happiness; the more you desire for happiness, the more unhappy you become. Now it is like a dog chasing its own tail. In Zen they have a certain phrase for it. They say: Whipping the cart. If your horses are not moving and you go on whipping the cart, it is not going to help. You are miserable, then anything that you can dream and anything that you can project is going to.bring more misery.

So the first thing is not to dream, not to project. The first thing is to be herenow. Whatsoever it is, just be herenow -- and a tremendous revelation is waiting for you. The revelation is that nobody can be unhappy in the herenow.


Vol 1 Chapter #5 
Chapter title: Be therefore mindful 
25 August 1976 am in Buddha Hall

THE BUDDHA SAID: 
IF A MAN WHO HAS COMMITTED MANY A MISDEMEANOUR DOES NOT REPENT AND CLEANSE HIS HEART OF THE EVIL, 
RETRIBUTION WILL COME UPON HIS PERSON AS SURE AS THE STREAMS RUN INTO THE OCEAN WHICH BECOMES EVER DEEPER AND WIDER. 
IF A MAN WHO HAS COMMITTED A MISDEMEANOUR COME TO THE KNOWLEDGE OF IT, REFORM HIMSELF AND PRACTISE GOODNESS, 
THE FORCE OF RETRIBUTION WILL GRADUALLY EXHAUST ITSELF AS A DISEASE GRADUALLY LOSES ITS BANEFUL INFLUENCE WHEN 
THE PATIENT PERSPIRES. 
THE BUDDHA SAID: WHEN AN EVIL-DOER, SEEING YOU PRACTISE GOODNESS, COMES AND MALICIOUSLY INSULTS YOU, 
YOU SHOULD PATIENTLY ENDURE IT AND NOT FEEL ANGRY WITH HIM. FOR THE EVIL-DOER IS INSULTING HIMSELF BY 
TRYING TO INSULT YOU. THE BUDDHA SAID:

MAN IS A CROWD, a crowd of many voices -- relevant, irrelevant, consistent,
inconsistent -- each voice pulling in its own way; all the voices pulling man apart.
Ordinarily man is a mess, virtually a kind of madness. You somehow manage, you
somehow manage to look sane. Deep down layers and layers of insanity are boiling
within you. They can erupt any moment, your control can be lost any moment, because
your control is enforced from without. It is not a discipline that has come from your
center of being.

For social reasons, economic reasons, political reasons, you have enforced a certain
character upon yourself. But many vital forces exist against that character within you.
They are continuously sabotaging your character. Hence every day you go on committing
many mistakes, many errors. Even sometimes you feel that you never wanted to do it. In
spite of yourself, you go on committing many mistakes -- because you are not one, you
are many.

Buddha does not call these mistakes sins, because to call them sin will be condemning
you. He simply calls them misdemeanours, mistakes, errors. To err is human, not to err is
divine. And the way from the human to the divine goes through mindfulness. These many
voices within you can stop torturing you, pulling you, pushing you. These many voices
can disappear if you become mindful.

In a mindful state mistakes are not committed -- not that you control them, but in a
mindful state, in an alert, aware state, voices, many voices cease; you simply become
one, and whatsoever you do comes from the very core of your being. It is never wrong.
This has to be understood before we enter into these sutras.

In the modern Humanistic Potential Movement there is a parallel to understand it. That's
what Transactional Analysis calls the triangle of PAC. P means parent, A means adult, C
means child. These are your three layers, as if you are a three-storied building. First floor
is that of the child, second floor is that of the parent, third floor is that of the adult. All
three exist together.

This is your inner triangle and conflict. Your child says one thing, your parent says
something else, your adult, rational mind says something else.
The child says 'enjoy'. For the child this moment is the only moment; he has no other
considerations. The child is spontaneous, but unaware of the consequences -- unaware of
past, unaware of future. He lives in the moment. He has no values and he has no
mindfulness, no awareness. The child consists of felt concepts; he lives through feeling.
His whole being is irrational.

Of course he comes into many conflicts with others. He comes into many contradictions
within himself, because one feeling helps him to do one thing, then suddenly he starts
feeling another feeling. A child never can complete anything. By the time he can
complete it his feeling has changed. He starts many things but never comes to any
conclusion. A child remains inconclusive. He enjoys -- but his enjoyment is not creative,
cannot be creative. He delights -- but life cannot be lived only through delight. You
cannot remain a child forever. You will have to learn many things, because you are not
alone here.

If you were alone then there would be no question -- you could have remained a child
forever. But the society is there, millions of people are there; you have to follow many
rules, you have to follow many values. Otherwise there will be so much conflict that life
would become impossible. The child has to be disciplined -- and that's where the parent
comes in.

The parental voice in you is the voice of the society, culture, civilization; the voice that
makes you capable of living in a world where you are not alone, where there are many
individuals with conflicting ambitions, where there is much struggle for survival, where
there is much conflict. You have to pave your path, and you have to move very
cautiously.

The parental voice is that of caution. It makes you civilized. The child is wild, the
parental voice helps you to become civilized. The word.'civil' is good. It means one who
has become capable of living in a city; who has become capable of being a member of a
group, of a society.

The child is very dictatorial. The child thinks he is the center of the world. The parent has
to teach you that you are not the center of the world -- everybody thinks that way. He has
to make you more and more alert that there are many people in the world, you are not
alone. You have to consider them if you want yourself to be considered by them.

Otherwise you will be crushed. It is a sheer question of survival, of policy, of politics.
The parental voice gives you commandments -- what to do, what not to do. The feeling
simply goes blind. The parent makes you cautious. It is needed.
And then there is the third voice within you, the third layer, when you have become adult
and you are no more controlled by your parents; your own reason has come of age, you
can think on your own.

The child consists of felt concepts; the parent consists of taught concepts, and the adult
consists of thought concepts. And these three layers are continuously in fight. The child
says one thing, the parent says just the opposite, and the reason may say something
totally different.

You see beautiful food. The child says to eat as much as you want. The parental voice
says that many things have to be considered -- whether you are really feeling hungry, or
just the smell of the food, the taste of the food is the only appeal. Is this food really
nutritious? Is it going to nourish your body or can it become harmful to you? Wait, listen,
don't rush. And then there is the rational mind, the adult mind, which may say something
else, totally different.

There is no necessity that your adult mind may agree with your parents. Your parents
were not omniscient, they were not all-knowing. They were as fallible human beings as
you are, and many times you find loopholes in their thinking. Many times you find them
very dogmatic, superstitious, believing in foolish things, irrational ideologies.

Your adult says no, your parent says do it, your adult says it is not worth doing, and your
child goes on pulling you somewhere else. This is the triangle within you.

If you listen to the child, your parent feels angry. So one part feels good -- you can go on
eating as much ice-cream as you want -- but your parent inside feels angry; a part of you
starts condemning. And then you start feeling guilty. The same guilt arises as it used to
arise when you were really a child. You are no more a child -- but the child has not
disappeared. It is there; it is just your ground floor, your very base, your foundation.
If you follow the child, if you follow the feeling, the parent is angry and then you start
feeling guilt. If you follow the parent then your child feels that he is being forced into
things which he does not want to do. Then your child feels he is being unnecessarily
interfered with, unnecessarily trespassed upon. Freedom is lost when you listen to the
parent, and your child starts feeling rebellious.

If you listen to the parent, your adult mind says, 'What nonsense! These people never
knew anything. You know more, you are more in tune with the modern world, you are
more contemporary. These ideologies are just dead ideologies, out of date -- why are you
bothering?' If you listen to your reason then also you feel as if you are betraying your
parents. Again guilt arises. What to do? And it is almost impossible to find something on
which all these three layers agree.

This is human anxiety. No, never do all these three layers agree on any point. There is no
agreement ever.

Now there are teachers who believe in the child. They emphasize the child more. For
example, Lao Tzu. He says, 'The agreement is not going to come. You drop this parental
voice, these commandments, these Old Testaments. Drop all 'shoulds' and become a child
again.' That's what Jesus says. Lao Tzu and Jesus, their emphasis is: become a child again
-- because only with the child will you be able to gain your spontaneity, will you again
become part of the natural flow, tao.

Their message is beautiful, but seems to be almost impractical. Sometimes, yes, it has
happened -- a person has become a child again. But it is so exceptional that it is not
possible to think that ever the humanity is going to become a child again. It is beautiful
like a star... far distant, but out of reach.

Then there are other teachers -- Mahavir, Moses, Mohammed, Manu -- they say listen to
the parental voice, listen to the moral, what the society says, what you have been taught.
Listen and follow it. If you want to be at ease in the world, if you want to be peaceful in
the world, listen to the parent. Never go against the parental voice.

That's how the world has followed, more or less. But then one never feels spontaneous,
one never feels natural. One always feels confined, caged. And when you don't feel free,
you may feel peaceful, but that peacefulness is worthless. Unless peace comes with
freedom you cannot accept it. Unless peace comes with bliss you cannot accept it. It
brings convenience, comfort, but your soul suffers.

Yes, there have been a few people again who have achieved through the parental voice,
who have really attained to the truth. But that too is very rare. And that world is gone.
Maybe in the past, Moses and Manu and Mohammed were useful. They gave
commandments to the world. 'Do this. Don't do that.' They made things simple, very
simple. They have not left anything for you to decide; they don't trust that you will be
able to decide. They simply give you a readymade formula -- 'These are the ten 
commandments to be followed. You simply do these and all that you hope, all that you
desire will happen as a consequence. You just be obedient.

All the old religions emphasized obedience too much. Disobedience is the only sin --
that's what christianity says. Adam and Eve were expelled from the garden of god
because they disobeyed. God had said not to eat the fruit of the tree of knowledge and
they disobeyed. That was their only sin. But every child is committing that sin. The father
says, 'Don't smoke,' and he tries it. The father says, 'Don't go to the movie,' and he goes.
The story of Adam and Eve is the story of every child. And then condemnation,
expulsion....

Obedience is religion for Manu, Mohammed, Moses. But that world has gone, and
through it many have not attained. Many became peaceful, good citizens, good members,
respectable members of the society, but nothing much.

Then there is the third emphasis on being adult. Confucius, Patanjali, or modern agnostics
-- Bertrand Russell -- all humanists of the world, they all emphasize: 'Believe only in
your own reason.' That seems very arduous, so much so that one's whole life becomes
just a conflict. Because you have been brought up by your parents, you have been
conditioned by your parents. If you listen only to your reason, you have to deny many
things in your being. In fact, your whole mind has to be denied. It is not easy to erase it.
And you were born as children without any reason. That too is there. Basically you are a
feeling being; reason comes very late. It comes when, in fact, all that has to happen has
happened. Psychologists say a child learns almost seventy-five percent of his whole
knowledge by the time he is seven years old. Seventy-five percent of his whole
knowledge he has learned by the time he is seven years old, fifty percent by the time he is
four years old. And this whole learning happens when you are a child, and reason comes
very late. It is a very late arrival. It comes when, in fact, all that has to happen has
happened.

It is very difficult to live with the reason. People have tried -- a Bertrand Russell here and
there -- but nobody has achieved truth through it, because reason alone is not enough.
All these angles have been chosen and tried, and nothing has worked. Buddha's
standpoint is totally different. That's his original contribution to human consciousness. He
says not to choose any, he says move in the center of the angle. Don't choose reason,
don't choose parent, don't choose the child; just move in the very center of the angle and
remain silent and become mindful. His approach is tremendously meaningful. And then
you will be able to have a clear perspective of your being. And out of that perspective and
clarity let the response come.

We can say it in another way. If you function as a child, that is a childish reaction. Many
times you function as a child. Somebody says something and you get hurt, and a tantrum
and anger and temper... you lose everything. Later on you feel very bad about it -- that
you lost your image. Everybody thinks you so sober and you were so childish, and
nothing much was at stake.

Or you follow your parental voice, but later on you think that still you are dominated by
your parents. You have not yet become an adult, mature enough to take the reins of your
life into your own hands. Or sometimes you follow reason, but then you think that reason
is not enough, feeling also is needed. And without feeling, a rational being becomes just
head; he loses contact with the body, he loses contact with life, he becomes disconnected.

He functions only as a thinking mechanism. But thinking cannot make you alive, in
thinking there is no juice of life. It is a very dry thing. Then you hanker, you hanker for
something which can again allow your energies to stream, which can again allow you to
be green and alive and young. This goes on and you go on chasing your own tail.
Buddha says these are all reactions and any reaction is bound to be partial -- only
response is total -- and whatsoever is partial is a mistake. That's his definition of error:
whatsoever is partial is a mistake. Because your other parts will remain unfulfilled and
they will take their revenge. Be total. Response is total, reaction is partial.

When you listen to one voice and follow it you are getting into trouble. You will never be
satisfied with it. Only one part will be satisfied, the other two parts will be very much
dissatisfied. So two thirds of your being will be dissatisfied, one third of your being will
be satisfied, and you will always remain in a turmoil. Whatsoever you do, reaction can
never satisfy you, because reaction is partial.

Response -- response is total. Then you don't function from any triangle, you don't
choose; you simply remain in a choiceless awareness. You remain centered. And out of
that centering you act, whatsoever it is. It is neither child nor parent nor adult. You have
gone beyond PAC. It is you now -- neither the child nor the parent nor the adult. It is you,
your being. That PAC is like a cyclone and your center is the center of the cyclone.

So whenever there is a need to respond, the first thing, Buddha says, is become mindful,
become aware. Remember your center. Become grounded in your center. Be there for a
few moments before you do anything. There is no need to think about it because thinking
is partial. There is no need to feel about it because feeling is partial. There is no need to
find clues from your parents, Bible, Koran, Gita -- these are all P -- there is no need. You
simply remain tranquil, silent, simply alert -- watching the situation as if you are
absolutely out of it, aloof, a watcher on the hills.

This is the first requirement -- to be centered whenever you want to act. Then out of this
centering let the act arise -- and whatsoever you do will be virtuous, whatsoever you do
will be right.

Buddha says right mindfulness is the only virtue there is. Not to be mindful is to fall into
error. To act unconsciously is to fall into error.
Now the sutras.

THE BUDDHA SAID:
IF A MAN WHO HAS COMMITTED MANY A MISDEMEANOUR DOES NOT
REPENT AND CLEANSE HIS HEART OF THE EVIL, RETRIBUTION WILL COME
UPON HIS PERSON AS SURE AS THE STREAMS RUN INTO THE OCEAN
WHICH BECOMES EVER DEEPER AND WIDER.
IF A MAN WHO HAS COMMITTED MANY A MISDEMEANOUR DOES NOT
REPENT...

Repentance means retrospective awareness, repentance means looking backwards. You
have done something. If you were aware then no wrong can happen, but you were not
aware at the time you did it. Somebody insulted -- you became angry, you hit him on the
head. You were not aware what you were doing. Now things have cooled down, the
situation has gone, you are no more in anger; you can look backwards more easily. You
missed awareness at that time. The best thing was to have awareness at that time, but you
missed it, and now there is no point in crying and weeping over the spilt milk. But you
can look, you can bring awareness to that which has already happened.

That is what Mahavir calls pratycraman, looking back; what Patanjali calls pratyahar,
looking in. That's what Jesus calls repentance. That's what Buddha calls pashchattap. It is
not feeling sorry, it is not just feeling bad about it, because that is not going to help. It is
becoming aware, it is reliving the experience as it should have been. You have to move
into it again.

You missed awareness in that moment; you were overflooded by unconsciousness. Now
things have cooled, you'll take your awareness, the light of awareness, back. You move in
that incident again, you look into it again as you should have really done; that is gone, but
you can do it retrospectively in your mind. And Buddha says this cleanses the heart of the
evil.

This looking back, continuously looking back, will make you more and more aware.
There are three stages. You have done something, then you become aware -- first stage.
Second stage: you are doing something, and you become aware. And third stage: you are
going to do something, and you become aware. Only in the third stage will your life be
transformed. But the first two are necessary for the third, they are necessary steps.

Whenever you can become aware, become aware. You have been angry -- now sit down,
meditate, become aware what has happened. Ordinarily we do it, but we do for wrong
reasons. We do it to put our image back in its right place. You always think you are a
very loving person, compassionate, and then you suddenly become angry. Now your
image is distorted in your own eyes. You do a sort of repentance. You go to the person
and you say, 'I am sorry.' What are you doing? You are repainting your image.

Your ego is trying to repaint the image, because you have fallen in your own eyes, you
have fallen in others' eyes. Now you are trying to rationalize. At least you can go and say,
'I am sorry. I did it in spite of myself. I don't know how it happened, I don't know what
evil force took possession of me, but I am sorry. Forgive me.'

You are trying to come back to the same level where you were before you became angry.
This is a trick of the ego, this is not real repentance. Again you will do the same thing.
Buddha says real repentance is remembering it, going into the details fully aware of what
happened; going backwards, reliving the experience. Reliving the experience is like
unwinding; it erases. And not only that -- it makes you capable of more awareness,
because awareness is practised when you are remembering it, when you are becoming
again aware about the past incident. You are getting a discipline in awareness, in
mindfulness. Next time you will become aware a little earlier.

This time you were angry; after two hours you could cool dawn. Next time after one hour
you will cool down. Next time after a few minutes. Next time, just as it has happened you
will cool down and you will be able to see. By and by, by slow progression, one day
while you are angry you will catch hold of yourself red-handed. And that is a beautiful
experience -- to catch yourself red-handed committing an error. Then suddenly the whole
quality changes, because whenever awareness penetrates you, reactions stop.

This anger is a childish reaction, it is the child in you. It is coming from the C. And later
on, when you feel sorry, that is coming from the P, from the parent. The parent forces
you to feel sorry and go and ask forgiveness. You have not been good to your mother or
to your uncle -- go and put things right.

Or it can come from A, from your adult mind. You have been angry and later on you
recognize that this is going to be too much; there is a financial loss in it. You have been
angry with your boss, now you become afraid. Now you start thinking he may throw you
out, or he may carry the anger within him. Your salary was going to be raised; he may not
raise it -- a thousand and one things... you would like to put things right.

When Buddha says repent, he's not telling you to function from C or P or A. He is saying
when you become aware, sit down, close your eyes, meditate upon the whole thing --
become a watcher. You missed the situation, but still something can be done about it: you
can watch it. You can watch it as it should have been watched. You can practise, this will
be a rehearsal, and by the time you have watched the whole situation you will feel
completely okay.

If then you feel like going and asking forgiveness, for no other reasons -- neither the
parent, nor the adult, nor the child -- but out of sheer understanding, out of sheer
meditation that it was wrong.... It was not wrong for any other reason; it was wrong
because you behaved in an unconscious way. Let me repeat it. You go and you ask for
forgiveness not for any other reason -- financial, social, political, cultural; no -- you
simply go there because you meditated on it and you recognized and you realized the fact
that you acted in unawareness; you have hurt somebody in unawareness.

You have to go and console the person at least. You have to go and help the person to
understand your helplessness -- that you are an unconscious person, that you are a human
being with all the limitations, that you are sorry. It is not putting your ego back, it is
simply doing something which your meditation has showed you. It is totally a different
dimension.

IF A MAN WHO HAS COMMITTED MANY A MISDEMEANOUR DOES NOT
REPENT AND CLEANSE HIS HEART OF THE EVIL, RETRIBUTION WILL COME
UPON HIS PERSON AS SURE AS THE STREAMS RUN INTO THE OCEAN
WHICH BECOMES EVER DEEPER AND WIDER.

Ordinarily what do we do? We become defensive. If you have been angry at your wife or
at your child, you become defensive; you say it had to be done that way, it was needed --
it was needed for the child's own good. If you are not angry, how are you going to
discipline the child? If you are not angry with somebody people will take advantage of
you. You are not a coward, you are a brave man. How can you just let people do things
which should not be done to you? You have to react.

You become defensive, you rationalize. If you go on rationalizing your errors... and all
errors can be rationalized, remember it. There exists not a single error which cannot be
rationalized. You can rationalize everything. But then, Buddha says, such a person is
bound to become more and more unconscious, more and more deeply unaware... AS
SURE AS THE STREAMS RUN INTO THE OCEAN WHICH BECOMES EVER
DEEPER AND WIDER.

If you go on defending yourself then you will not be able to transform yourself. You have
to recognize that there is something wrong. The very recognition helps change.
If you feel healthy and you are not ill, you are not going to go to a physician. Even if the
physician comes to you, you are not going to listen to him. You are perfectly okay. You
will say, 'I'm perfectly well. Who says I am ill?' If you don't think you are ill, you will go
on protecting your illness. That is dangerous; you are on a suicidal path.

If there has been anger, there has been greed, there has been something that happens only
when you are unconscious, recognize it -- the sooner you do it the better. Meditate upon
it. Move to your center and respond from the center.

IF A MAN WHO HAS COMMITTED A MISDEMEANOUR COME TO THE
KNOWLEDGE OF IT, REFORM HIMSELF AND PRACTISE GOODNESS, THE
FORCE OF RETRIBUTION WILL GRADUALLY EXHAUST ITSELF AS A
DISEASE GRADUALLY LOSES ITS BANEFUL INFLUENCE WHEN THE
PATIENT PERSPIRES.

If you acknowledge it you have taken one very meaningful step towards changing it.
Now Buddha says one very important thing: 'If you come to acknowledge it, if you come
to the knowledge of it, reform yourself.'

Ordinarily, even if we sometimes recognize that 'yes, something wrong has happened', we
don't try to reform ourselves, we only try to reform our image. We want everybody to
feel that they have forgiven us. We want everybody to recognize that it was wrong on our
part, but we have asked for their forgiveness, and things are put right again. We are again
on our pedestal. The fallen image is replaced back on the throne. We don't reform
ourselves.

You have many times asked forgiveness, but again and again you go on doing the same
thing. That simply shows that it was a policy, a politics, a trick to manipulate people --
but you have remained the same, you have not changed at all. If you have really asked
forgiveness for your anger or any offence against anybody, then it should not happen
again. Only that can be a proof that you are really on the path of changing yourself.

BUDDHA SAYS:
IF A MAN WHO HAS COMMITTED A MISDEMEANOUR COME TO THE
KNOWLEDGE OF IT, REFORM HIMSELF AND PRACTISE GOODNESS...

So, two things he is saying. First: the moment you feel that something goes wrong,
something continuously makes you unconscious, and you behave in a mechanical way,
you react, then you have to do something -- and the doing has to become more aware.
That is the only way to reform yourself.

Watch how many things you do unconsciously. Somebody says something and there is
anger. There is not even a single moment's gap. It is as if you are just a mechanism --
somebody pushes a button and you lose your temper. Just as if you push the button and
the fan starts moving and the light goes on. There is not a. single moment. The fan never
thinks whether to move or not to move; it simple moves.

Buddha says this is unconsciousness, this is mindlessness. Somebody insults and you are
simply controlled by his insult. 

Gurdjieff used to say that a small thing transformed his life completely. His father was
dying and he called the boy -- and Gurdjieff was only nine years old -- and he said to the
boy, 'I have nothing much to give you, but only one advice that was given from my father
to me from his deathbed, and it has tremendously benefited me. Maybe it can be of some
use to you. I don't feel that you will be able to understand it right now, you are too young.
So just remember it. Whenever you can understand, it will be helpful.'

And he said, 'Remember only one thing -- if you feel angry, then wait for twenty-four
hours. Then do whatsoever you want to do -- but wait twenty-four hours. If somebody
insults you, you tell him, "I will come after twenty-four hours and do whatsoever is
needed. Please give me a little time to think over it."'

Of course the nine-year-old Gurdjieff could not understand what it is, but he followed it.
By and by he became aware of the tremendous impact of it. He was completely
transformed. Because two things he had to remember -- one, he had to be aware not to do
the anger, not to move into anger when somebody was insulting, not to allow himself to
be manipulated by the other -- he had to wait for twenty-four hours. So when somebody
was insulting or saying something against him, he would simply remain alert not to be
affected. For twenty-four hours, he had promised his dying father, he would remain cool
and calm. And by and by he became capable.

And then he understood it -- that after twenty-four hours it is never needed. You cannot
be angry after twenty-four hours. After twenty-four minutes you cannot be angry, after
twenty-four seconds you cannot be angry. Either it is instant or it is not. Because anger
functions only if you are unconscious; if you are this much conscious -- that you can wait
for twenty-four seconds -- finished. Then you cannot be angry. Then you have missed the
moment, then you have missed the train; the train has left the platform. Even twenty-four
seconds will do -- you try it.

Buddha says one who acknowledges his errors... and he simply says acknowledges it, he
does not say 'who condemns', because there is nothing to condemn. It is human, it is
natural; we are unconscious beings. Buddha used to say that god, or the universal soul, or
existence, sleeps in the mineral, totally oblivious; in the vegetable the sleep is not so
deep, a few fragments of dreams have started moving around; in the animal, god is
dreaming; in man he has become a little aware -- just a little. Those moments are few and
far between. Sometimes months pass and you are not aware for a single moment, but in
man there is the possibility of a few moments of awareness. In a Buddha, god has become
perfectly aware.

Watch existence all around. In these trees, Buddha says there are just a few fragments of
dreams. In the rocks... fast, deep sleep, dreamless -- sushupti. In the animals -- in the cat,
in the dog, in the lion, in the tiger, in the birds -- god is dreaming, many dreams. In man
he is coming above, just a little, a few moments of awareness.
So don't miss any opportunity whenever you can become aware. And those are the best
moments -- when unconsciousness pulls you deep down. If you can use those moments, if
you can use those moments as challenges, god will become more and more aware in you.
One day your awareness becomes a continuous flame, an eternal flame. Then god is
perfectly awake, no sleep, no dream.

This is the meaning of the word 'buddha'. 'Buddha' means one who has become
absolutely aware. In no situation does he lose his mindfulness. His mindfulness has
become just natural like breathing. Just as you breathe in and breathe out, in exactly the
same way he inhales awareness, he exhales awareness. His centering has become
permanent. He does not function from personalities -- the personality of the child, the
parent, the adult, no. He simply functions from a point which is beyond all personalities.

This is what he calls 'reform'. The word 'reform' is beautiful. It means 'to make it again' --
reform, to re-build, to re-create. Reform does not mean just reform, reform does not mean
just modifying here and there. Reform does not mean that somewhere the plaster has
fallen so you put it again, somewhere the colour has disappeared, evaporated, so you
paint it again. Reform does not mean small modifications. Reform is a very revolutionary
word. It simply means form it again, be reborn, be totally new, take a quantum jump,
move from the old personality, be away from the old nucleus, attain to a new center.

HE REFORMS HIMSELF, PRACTISES GOODNESS...

Whatsoever you feel is your basic error, just don't get chronically attentive towards it,
don't get obsessed by it. That too is a fault. There are many people, they come to me and
they say, 'We cannot control anger. We continuously are trying to control it, but we
cannot control. What to do?'

Buddha says don't become obsessive about anything. Recognize it, become aware, and do
something just the opposite. If you feel anger is your problem, don't be too attentive
towards anger; become more compassionate, become more loving. Because if you
become too much concerned about anger, where will you put the energy that will be
released if you don't become angry? Create a path for the energy to move. It is the same
energy. When you have compassion it is the same energy as it was in anger. Now it is
positive, then it was negative. Then it was destructive, now it is creative. But it is the
same energy -- anger becomes compassion. So before you want to change anger you will
have to channelize, you will have.to make new channels towards compassion.

So Buddha says practise goodness, practise virtue. Find out your chief fault and create
new pathways in your being. If you are a miser then just crying about it and talking about
it is not going to help. Then start sharing. Whatsoever you can share, share. Do
something that becomes a breakthrough, do something that goes against your past, do
something that you have never done before. It is possible that you are angry because you
don't know how to have compassion. It is possible you are a miser because you don't
know how to share.

Buddha's emphasis is to be positive -- do something so the energy starts moving and
flowing. Then by and by it will be taken away from anger. Become conscious but don't
be obsessed.

You will have to make a distinction between these two things because human mind is
such that it goes on misinterpreting. When Buddha says become mindful, he is not saying
become obsessed, he is not saying continuously think of anger. Because if you
continuously think of anger you will create more and more angry situations for yourself.
Be conscious, but there is no need to contemplate. Be conscious, but there is no need to
be too much concerned. Take a note of it and then do something which changes your
energy pattern. That's what he means when he says practise goodness.

... THE FORCE OF RETRIBUTION WILL GRADUALLY EXHAUST ITSELF AS A
DISEASE GRADUALLY LOSES ITS BANEFUL INFLUENCE WHEN THE
PATIENT PERSPIRES.

Somebody has taken too much alcohol. What do you do? You can give him a hot bath or
you can put him in a sauna bath. If he can perspire the alcohol will go with his
perspiration.

Buddha says to do virtue is like perspiration. Your unconscious habits evaporate through
it. So not doing bad is actually doing good. Don't be negatively interested, be positive. If
you just sit and think about all the wrongs that you have done, by and by thinking too
much about wrongs that you have done, you will be giving too much food to them. To
give attention is to give food, to give attention means to play with the wound.
Take note, be mindful, meditate, but don't play with the wound. Otherwise you will be
making the wound again and again more alive. It will start bleeding. So don't become too
much concerned about your small things -- they are small.

I have heard about a saint who used to beat himself every morning, and he would cry,
'God, forgive me. I have committed a sin.' This continued for forty years. Again and
again he was asked... He had become a very respectable man, he was thought to be a very
holy man, and nobody knew that he had ever committed any sin because he was such a
virtuous man. And for forty years people had watched him -- he was always in the public
eye, he was always surrounded by people. When he was asleep, then too people were
surrounding him, and nobody had seen that he had ever done anything wrong; he was
continuously praying. But every morning he would beat himself, blood would flow from
his body.

Continuously he was asked, 'What wrong have you done?' What sin? Let us know.' But
he would not say. Only when he was dying, he said, 'Now I will have to say, because last
night god appeared in my dream and he said, "You are creating too much fuss about it.
Forty years is enough! And I have to tell you this, otherwise I won't allow you in heaven.
You have not done anything wrong."' Just when he was young he saw a beautiful woman
pass and desire arose in him, just an urge to have this woman. That was the only sin that
he had committed -- just a thought -- and for forty years he was beating himself. Even
god had to appear to him in a dream: 'Please, now... because tomorrow you are going to
die. I will not allow you in heaven if you continue this. You have not done anything
much, but you are creating too much fuss about it. Don't be fussy.'

All errors are just ordinary. What extraordinary sin can you commit? All the sins have
been committed already; you cannot find a new sin -- it is very difficult. It is almost
impossible to be original about sin. For millions of years people have committed
everything that can be committed. Can you find anything new? It is impossible -- and
what can you commit?

Bertrand Russell used to say that the christian god seems to be almost absurd, because the
christian god says that if you commit a sin you will be thrown into hell for eternity. Now
this is too much. You can throw a man for five years, ten years, twenty years, fifty years.
If a man has lived for seventy years you can throw him for seventy years. That means he
was continually sinning for seventy years -- not even a gap, not even a holiday. Then too
you can throw him for seventy years.

And christians believe in only one life. It is good that they believe in one life, otherwise
what will they do? For one life's sins they throw you in hell for eternity! Just think of
hindus -- so many lives; one eternity will not be enough.

Russell used to say, 'I count my sins -- those which I have committed and also those
which I have not committed, only thought -- and I cannot conceive how, for these small
things, I am going to be thrown for eternity into hell, and I will be tortured for eternity.
Even a very very hard magistrate cannot send me to jail for more than four years.' And he
was right.

What errors can you commit? What errors have you committed? Don't call them sin
because the very word has become contaminated, it has a condemnation in it. Buddha
simply calls them 'misdemeanours', ungraceful acts. Beautiful is his term -- ungraceful
acts, acts in which you behaved in an ungraceful way. You became angry or you said
something which was not graceful, or you did something which was not graceful -- just
misdemeanour's.

THE BUDDHA SAID:
WHEN AN EVIL-DOER, SEEING YOU PRACTISE GOODNESS, COMES AND
MALICIOUSLY INSULTS YOU, YOU SHOULD PATIENTLY ENDURE IT AND
NOT FEEL ANGRY WITH HIM. FOR THE EVIL-DOER IS INSULTING HIMSELF
BY TRYING TO INSULT YOU.

Try to understand this sutra. It always happens -- if you become good you will find many
people becoming angry at you. Because your very goodness creates guilt in them -- they
are not so good. Your being good creates a comparison. It is very difficult for people to
forgive a good man. They can always forgive a bad man, but it is very difficult for them
to forgive a good man. Hence for centuries they remain angry against a Jesus, against a
Socrates, against a Buddha. Why does it happen? You can watch in life.
I was once in a university, I was a teacher there, and one clerk who was the best on the
whole staff and a very sincere worker, told me, 'I am in trouble. The whole staff is against
me. They say, "Why do you work so much? When we are not working you are also not
supposed to work. Just two hours is enough -- just go on putting files from here to there,
there is no need..."' His table was always clean, no files piling, and everybody else'
stables were full of files. Of course they were angry, because this man's presence created
a comparison. If this man can do, why can't they do?

A good man is never loved because he creates comparison. A Jesus has to be crucified,
because if such innocence is possible, then why are you not so innocent? It becomes a
deep wound in your ego. You have to crush this man; only by killing him will you be
satisfied. You have to poison Socrates because this man is so truthful. Why can't you be
so truthful? Your lies are revealed by this man's truth. This man's reality, authenticity,
makes you feel all pseudo. This man is dangerous. It is as if in a valley of blind people
one man comes who has eyes.

H. G. Wells has a story that there was a valley of blind people somewhere in South
America, and once a traveller came who had eyes. All the blind people gathered together
and they thought that something must be wrong with this man; it had never happened.
They decided to operate. Of course, in a valley of blind people, if you have eyes
something is wrong with you.

Mulla Nasrudin is a hypochondriac. Once he came to me and told me, 'There must be
something wrong with my wife.'
I said, 'What is wrong with your wife? She looks perfectly healthy.'
He said, 'There must be something wrong. She never goes to the doctor.'

He goes every day, regularly, religiously, and every doctor of the town is annoyed by
him. Now he is worried about his wife. There must be something wrong with her because
she never goes to any doctor.

If you live with unhealthy people, to be healthy is dangerous. If you live with insane
people, then to be sane is dangerous. If you live in a madhouse, even if you are not mad
at least pretend that you are mad, otherwise those mad people will kill you.

BUDDHA SAYS:
WHEN AN EVIL-DOER, SEEING YOU PRACTISE GOODNESS, COMES AND
MALICIOUSLY INSULTS YOU...

They will come and insult you. They cannot tolerate the idea that you can be better than
them. It is impossible for them to believe that anybody can surpass them. Then the
surpasser must be a pretender, then he must be a deceiver, then he must be trying just to
create an image about himself, about his ego. They become restless. They start taking
revenge.

WHEN AN EVIL-DOER, SEEING YOU PRACTISE GOODNESS, COMES AND
MALICIOUSLY INSULTS YOU, YOU SHOULD PATIENTLY ENDURE IT...

You should remain at your center, you should patiently endure it, you should simply
watch it, what is happening. You should not get disturbed about it. If you get disturbed
then that malicious person has defeated you. If you get disturbed then you are conquered.
If you get disturbed then you have cooperated with him.

Buddha says just keep quiet, endure it, remain patient, and don't feel angry with him...

FOR THE EVIL-DOER IS INSULTING HIMSELF BY TRYING TO INSULT YOU.

He is insulting his own potentiality.
When we crucified Jesus, we crucified our own innocence. When we crucified Jesus, we
crucified our own future. When we crucified Jesus, we killed our own divinity. He was
nothing but a symbol that this is possible to you also, that whatsoever has happened to
him can happen to you also.

When we poisoned Socrates we poisoned our whole being, we poisoned our whole
history. He was nothing but the coming star, the herald of the future. He was saying, 'This
is your potentiality. Whatsoever I am is just a messenger to give you the message that
you can also become like me.'

Buddha says: FOR THE EVIL-DOER IS INSULTING HIMSELF BY TRYING TO
INSULT YOU. You remain patient, you endure it, don't get angry.

THE BUDDHA SAID:
ONCE A MAN CAME UNTO ME AND DENOUNCED ME ON ACCOUNT OF MY
OBSERVING THE WAY AND PRACTISING GREAT LOVING KINDNESS.

It looks absurd. Why should people go to somebody, who has done nothing wrong to
them, to denounce him? Why should they go and denounce Buddha? Because he has not
done anything wrong to anybody. He is in nobody's way -- he has renounced all
competitiveness. He is almost a dead person as far as the world is concerned. But why
should people go out of their way to denounce him?

His very presence is insulting to them. The very possibility that a man can be so good
hurts them. Then why are they not so good? It creates guilt. That's why down the
centuries people go on writing that a man like Buddha never existed, that Jesus is a myth,
that these are just wish-fulfillments. These people never existed, these are human desires,
utopias; they never really existed. Or even if they existed they were not like they are
depicted; they are just fantasies, dreams. Why?

Even today people go on writing against Buddha, against Jesus. Still today something
hurts. Twenty-five centuries have passed since this man walked, but still there are people
who don't feel at ease with this man. If he existed really, historically, then they are
condemned. They have to prove that this man never existed, it is just a myth. Then they
are at ease.

Once they have proved that there has never been a Buddha, never a Jesus, never a
Krishna, once they have proved that there is no god, then they can rest, then they can be
whatsoever they are, then there is no comparison. They are the last word in existence.
Then they can remain as they are without any transformation. Then they can remain and
go on doing whatsoever they are doing. Then they can go on doing rubbish and they can
go on talking garbage, and they can go on being unconscious drunkards as they are. But if
ever a man like Buddha walked on the earth -- with such flame, with such glow, with
such glory -- they feel hurt.

ONCE A MAN CAME UNTO ME AND DENOUNCED ME ON ACCOUNT OF MY
OBSERVING THE WAY AND PRACTISING GREAT LOVING KINDNESS. BUT I
KEPT SILENT AND DID NOT ANSWER HIM.

That's what I mean when I say get out of the triangle of PAC. Because if you answer you
will react. You remain quiet, you simply remain at your center; don't be distracted. You
just remain silent, serene, collected, calm.

BUT I KEPT SILENT AND DIDN'T ANSWER HIM.

That has to be understood. Because what is the point in answering such a man? He will
not understand in the first place. In the second place the possibility is he will
misunderstand.

Pontius Pilate asked Jesus at the last moment when he was going to be crucified, 'What is
truth?' and Jesus remained silent, he didn't say a single word. His whole life he was
talking about truth, his whole life was sacrificed into the service of truth, and at the last
moment why is he quiet? Why is he not answering? He knows that the answer is futile, it
won't get home. There is every possibility that it will be misunderstood.

Silence is his answer -- and silence is more penetrating. If some disciple had asked him
he would have answered, because a disciple is one who is ready to understand, who is
receptive, who will take care of whatsoever is said to him, who will feed on it, who will
digest it. The word will become flesh in him.

But Pontius Pilate is not a disciple. He is not asking it in a deep, humble attitude, he is not
ready to learn. He is just asking -- maybe out of curiosity, or just joking, or just trying to
make a laughing stock of this man. Jesus remained quiet, silence was his answer.

And Buddha says:
I KEPT SILENT AND DID NOT ANSWER HIM. THE DENUNCIATION CEASED.

Because that silence must have surprised the man. An answer would have been okay, he
could have understood. But silence he couldn't understand at all. He must have been
shocked. He is denouncing and Buddha is simply quiet, silent. He is insulting and
Buddha is unperturbed. If he was perturbed, if he was disturbed and distracted, then the
man could have understood the language. That language he knew, but he did not know
this totally unknown language of silence, of grace, of peace, of love, of compassion.

He must have felt embarrassed, he must have felt puzzled. He could not figure it out. He
was at a loss. THE DENUNCIATION CEASED. What is the point of going on now?
This man seems to be almost like a statue. He has not answered, he has not reacted.

I THEN ASKED HIM, 'IF YOU BRING A PRESENT TO YOUR NEIGHBOUR AND
HE ACCEPTS IT NOT, DOES THE PRESENT COME BACK TO YOU?'

Rather than answering him, when the denunciation ceased Buddha asked him:

'IF YOU BRING A PRESENT TO YOUR NEIGHBOUR AND HE ACCEPTS IT NOT,
DOES THE PRESENT COME BACK TO YOU?' THE MAN REPLIED, 'IT WILL.' I
SAID, 'YOU DENOUNCE ME NOW, BUT AS I ACCEPT IT NOT, YOU MUST
TAKE THE WRONG DEED BACK ON YOUR OWN PERSON. IT IS LIKE ECHO
SUCCEEDING SOUND, IT IS LIKE SHADOW FOLLOWING OBJECT. YOU
NEVER ESCAPE THE EFFECT OF YOUR OWN EVIL DEEDS. BE THEREFORE
MINDFUL AND CEASE FROM DOING EVIL.'

He has shown something without saying it. He asked the man, 'If you bring a present to a
neighbour...' he calls it a present '... and he accepts it not, what will you do?' Of course
the man must have said, 'I will take it back.' He was persuaded, now he cannot turn back.
Buddha said, 'And you have brought a present to me -- maybe of insults, denunciation --
and I accept it not. You can bring, that is your freedom, but whether I will accept it or not
is my freedom, it is my choice.'

This is something beautiful to be understood. Somebody insults you. The insult is not yet
meaningful unless you accept it. Unless you immediately take it, it is meaningless, it is
noise, it has nothing to do with you. So in fact nobody can insult you unless you take it,
unless you cooperate with it.

So whenever you were insulted, you felt insulted, it was you, it was your responsibility.
Don't say that somebody else insulted you. Why did you accept it? Nobody can force you
to accept it. It is his freedom to insult, it is your freedom whether to accept or not. If you
accept then it is your responsibility, then don't say that he insulted you. Simply say, 'I
accepted the insult.' Simply say, 'I was not aware; in unawareness I simply accepted it
and then I became disturbed.'
Buddha says, 'Accept only that which you need. Accept only nourishment.' Why accept
poison? Somebody brings a cupful of poison and he wants to present it. You say, 'Thank
you sir, but I don't need it. If sometime I want to commit suicide I will come and ask, but
right now I want to live.' There is no need; just because somebody has brought poison to
you there is no necessity that you should drink it. You can simply say, 'Thank you.' That's
what Buddha did.

He says,'But as I accept it not, what are you going to do with it? You will have to take it
back. I feel sorry for you. You will have to take it on yourself, it will fall on yourself...
just as a shadow follows the object, or the echo succeeds the sound. Now it will follow
you forever and ever. Your insult will be like a thorn in your being. Now it will haunt
you. You have not done something against me, you have done something against
yourself.'

To be a help to this poor man who has done something wrong against himself, Buddha
feels sorry, Buddha feels compassion. He says, 'Be therefore mindful. Do only that which
you would like to follow you. Do only that which will follow you and you will feel
happy. Sing a song, so if the echoes come, they will shower more songs on you.'
In Matheran, a hill station just nearby, I used to have many camps. The first camp, I went
to see a place, an echo point. A few friends were there with me. One started barking like
a dog and the whole valley echoed as if many dogs were barking. I told the man, 'Take a
lesson -- this is the whole situation of life: life is an echo point. If you bark like a dog,
then the whole valley will echo and it will follow and haunt you. Why not sing a song?'
He understood the point and he sang a song, and the whole valley showered, echoed.
It depends on you. Whatsoever you do with others, in fact you are doing with yourself,
because from everywhere things will return back, a thousand-fold. If you shower flowers
on others, flowers will come on you. If you sow thorns in others' paths, the path is going
to be yours.

We cannot do anything to anybody else without doing it to ourselves in the first place.
We can do something to somebody else only if he accepts it, and that is not decidedly so.
Maybe he is a Buddha, a Jesus, and he simply sits silently. Then the deed falls on our
own being.

Buddha says: BE THEREFORE MINDFUL... He must have said in deep compassion...
AND CEASE FROM DOING EVIL... because you will suffer unnecessarily.

Let me repeat one thing so that you can remember it. You have three layers: the child, the
parent, the adult -- and you are none. You are neither the child nor the parent nor the
adult. You are something beyond, you are something eternal, you are something far away
from all these struggling parts, conflicting parts.

Don't choose, just be mindful, and act out of your mindfulness. Then you will be
spontaneous like a child, and without being childish. And remember the difference
between being like a child and being childish. They are two different things.
If you act out of mindfulness you will be like a child and yet you will not be childish.
And if you act out of your mindfulness you will be following all the commandments
without following them at all. And if you act out of your mindfulness whatsoever you do
will be reasonable. And to be reasonable is to be really rational.

And remember, reasonableness is different from rationality. Reasonableness is a very
very different thing, because reasonableness accepts irrationality also as part of life.
Reason is monotonous, rationality is monotonous. Reasonableness accepts the polarity of
things. A reasonable man is a feeling man as much as a reasoning man.

So if you act out of your innermost core, you will become tremendously content;
contented, because all layers will be fulfilled. Your child will be fulfilled because you
will be spontaneous. Your parent will not feel angry and guilty because naturally all that
is good will be done by you, not as an outer discipline but as an inner awareness.
You will follow the ten commandments of Moses without ever having heard about them;
you will naturally follow them. That's where Moses got them -- not on the mountain but
on the inner peak. And you will be following Lao Tzu and Jesus -- and you may not have
heard about Lao Tzu and Jesus. That's where they got their childhood again, that's where
they got born. And you will be following Manu and Mahavir and Mohammed, very
naturally, and still you will not be irrational.

Your mind will be in total support with it. It will not be against your adult rationality.
Your adult rationality will be totally convinced by it, your Bertrand Russell will be
convinced by it.

Then all your three conflicting parts fall into one whole. You become a unity, you are
together. Then those many voices disappear. Then you are no more many, you are one.
This one is the goal.
SO, BE THEREFORE MINDFUL.

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